I got a little emotional hours before my actual birthday. It was a whole production that involved tears and ice cream, plus a little dramatic rant to loser.
This will be the first time I’ll be spending my birthday alone and in a foreign country. Every other day, being away from everyone wouldn’t bother me one bit cause this was the life I chose. I knew what getting married and moving away meant but while I was sitting on the couch watching tv, it hit me. When I wake up in the morning, no one would wake me up with birthday greeting and kisses. No one would go out of their way to make me feel special like make me breakfast or take me out for dinner. Over the years, I always had someone to spend my birthday with, whether it be with my family or with my friends.
I’m one of those people who take birthdays seriously so being this alone was such a big deal.
The husband went online just before midnight to greet me and check up on my day. He was supposed to call me but the connection was acting up from his end so we just settled for chatting on Facebook. He knew that I was being sad about being alone so he was worried and guilty cause he couldn’t be here with me. I know that it wasn’t his fault he couldn’t be here; it’s part of the job, it couldn’t be helped. He did post this very cheesy and super effort message on my wall which kinda made me feel better.
One of the first people who remembered my birthday was our former help. It was sweet that she remembered my birthday. We chit chatted a bit, the usual how are you doing. It was touched when she said that she’s really proud of the person I turned out. She made me feel all tingly inside.
Loser was online the whole day so it make me not want to so sad. I don’t know if it was her intention to distract me but it worked. Talking to her made the whole day not suck so much.
I woke up pretty late because there wasn’t anything I was planning to anyway. In the afternoon I went to church and then stopped by the NEX just to check out what was on sale. I was gonna buy something as a birthday present but ended up not doing so cause I didn’t like anything.
I woke up to a phone call from Ate A. telling me that the ship arrived early. I was half awake when I picked up the phone so she had to repeat herself a few times before I could react. At first, I believed her and then when she started laughing I realized she was just playing with me. She called to wake me up and tell me that she’s picking me up after she goes to mass so we can have lunch together as a post birthday treat. The whole day, I was with her and Jayden, we went out for lunch, went window shopping them a little Starbucks.
I was glad she took me out cause at least someone wanted to celebrate my birthday with me, without having to beg for company.
In all, my birthday could have been better but it wasn’t that bad.